What is LOVE and Where it is???

I started to realize, when a guy is so not into you, he will stop all the actions. As a gal, we should always alert when they start those action. It is to prevent ourselves not to fall in the same trap again.

There was a case i heard from a friend of mine. It makes me feel shock as in guy can be so pathetic and tactful when they want something more than pure relationship.

Before getting together with the gal, the guy Mr D would always do something touching to make sure he manage to grab the gal heart. Besides, he had make a lot of promises just to reassure the gal that he is seriously in love with her. The gal feel touch, trust everything and vowed to spend the rest of her life with this lovely guy.

However, when he manage to grab the gal's heart, he will try to ask for more in order to continue the relationship. He said this is the way he express his love and want the gal to trust him. He even propose to her and plan for their future. Perhaps this is so called the love promise and the gal choose to believe.

There are so much of issues they need to face it together. Before this, the guy told the gal no matter how the situation is she should not let go and he will always be there for her. But, he just break his promise. Finally, He choose to let go because he cant take it anymore. This is the excuse he tell the gal. The gal was very sad but agreed to break up at last.

After some period of time, they meet again. But, the gal find out the guy is no longer the one she knew before. He likes to insult her or say something rude when they meet up. The guy even requested the gal to become his sex partner and something more than that. This is how he sound like, looks like i m still have feeling on you, can we have sex together?(sound like he has a good heart by offer his sperm away??) I'll promise this love making is going to be very sweet and i'll be gentle to you since this is your first time. If you want a baby, i can give you one. (wow, sound like he is sort of God???) Just tell me where and when. I want it as a long term thing and we can meet once per month. What a hurtful words! The gal feel upset as in the guy is not sincere start from the beginning. All he wants is just SEX SEX and SEX!

what a ridiculous request?!!! Just wonder is this guy seriously in love with the gal or it is just a tactic for the guy to trap down the gal?? Feel kind of disappointed as in love could be so fragile and not sincere at all. People can even use tactics and pretend they are seriously in love. What is LOVE and Where is it???

miss him

i guess i am really miss him so much after i back from the KL trip. I'm not sure what is my feeling towards him, only feel that he is the one who i feel comfortable to hang around with. Too much of the issues causes us can't get together, been missed the old days when we getting together as a couple. The kisses and hugs make me feel hard to let go. sometimes i just wonder by myself is it the reasons why i missed him so much?? is it the reason? or still there is other reason i missed him so much? Ever since the day we broke up i thought our love was already ended, as in we had a big argument before we ended it.

Dentist Vs Me

I hate to visit dentist since i was a kid especially those who work for government because i find they are very rough when they deal with their patient. I do have a bad experience before and it's like a nightmare for me. Hence, I've promise myself never ever go to government dentist again. However, i decided to go back to dentist yesterday due to i din go for dental check up for nearly 7 years plus.

I was very nervous when i reached the clinic and totally freaked out when saw those equipments inside the room. The dentist told me that i'm having a dental issue which called Gingivitis and need to remove all the plaque ASAP. This is due to the infection will gradually destroy the underlying bone, causing the teeth to loosen and fall out. Gosh, i don't want to have all my teeth to fall out by the age of 35!! No matter how pain it is, i'm going to take it!! LOL

The process of cleaning and removal of plaque was quite bad and remind me of my last cleaning process in secondary schoold. After the clean up process, the doctor had given me some antibiotics as well as a special mouthwash to fight the infection. Guess the superb bad news would be i need to go back there for my second clean up process. Sigh sigh... I hate it !!

Sad

Usually i don't like to argue, but today is just too much for me! I tried to fight back coz i can't take it anymore. All the words are very hurtful and make me feel very sad :( I keep on telling myself no matter how bad the arguement is i need to hold down my tears. But, cant make it at last. Sometimes i just wonder does God really listen to my praying? as i've pray so hard everyday. Another sad day to go....... @_@

陌生

说真的好怕这种陌生感觉.
有可能我比较害怕分离, 因为分离足能让一对更本认识的人变的毫无关系.
从无话不谈演变成无话可说,从爱变成恨,从认识变成陌生人.
想要保持联络,又担心对方的想法及他那冷淡的态度.
有可能已习惯别人的疼爱,所以当有人对自己冷淡时,会觉得很不好受.
从小到大,从没试过被人大声呼喊过.最想不到的是自以为很疼爱自己的某人竟然会这样对待自己.
根本与这一颗心是很靠近的,不知怎地变得深不可测,完全陌生及已不能再透彻那颗心了.
想起真的是有些心疼,为什么会变成这样?
以前的我会转牛角尖,想要知道答案.
可是现在的我已不会再追求答案,就算知到了答案又怎样? 已定为事实了,为何又要再自我伤害呢?
也许已经看透一切吧!答案已不重要, 最重要的是我已学会放下, 往前看了!

Misunderstanding

We have lots of misunderstanding gone through us. Sometimes, I'll have the funny thinking and there are lots of "what if" in my mind... What if i open up myself, what if he can be more patience to me, what if..... Well, i hope i can turn back time and also hope he can read my blog, at least he knows the real me and not the one he is thinking at. Nothing much can be done now as there are so much things to explain and i don't have the privilege to deal with it. Hopefully, times will prove who i am and clear up those misunderstanding. Just wonder when will it come?

New Hair Style

My mum, sisters and i like to get our hair done when come to chinese new year. It's like a tradition for Lee's family. We never and ever missed it! Well, quite satisfy with the new hair style. It is nothing special as i had permed it last year, the only thing different is i've coloured it into light brown. This is due to i had coloured dark brown for the past two years, would like to try out something different this year.

Princess ChErRy

She is the cutest baby i ever know, the one who i would like to spend more time with - Princess Cherry.

The most recent pix - Princess Cherry.

These pix taken when she is only about 1 year plus.

These pix taken when she just about 8 or 9 months old.

(some of my friends said she looks like little jack jack)

Resolutions in 2009

There are so much of things i need to do in 2009:

1. Improve my communication skills and language (thanks for someone who had doubted me).
2. Find a job (It is a must to make me feel more confident because someone had reminded me on how useless i was in year 2008).
3. Save money for HK Trip (it is a promise between me and my mum).
4. Read more books, mags or newspaper (just to broaden my view and knowledge).
5. Spend more time and talk more with my family (although i am staying together with my family, but i dont really share alot about my feeling with them).

Well, those are the five main things i need to improve in year 2009. Hopefully, everything will going to be fine in year 2009 :)

Goodbye 2008, hello 2009

Time flies so fast until i can't even realize it. There are so much of things happened in year 2008, it had became the most memorable year for me especially the 3 months before year 2009. Well, nothing much i can do now as it already past, a past which i cant do anything to fix it.
All i have to do now is move on and do something great in year 2009. No one will going to find out what's happen next in future, so we should just appreciate what we have now, take year 2008 as a lesson and try to make our life in year 2009 more content.