janelle

What is LOVE and Where it is???

2009-08-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

I started to realize, when a guy is so not into you, he will stop all the actions. As a gal, we should always alert when they start those action. It is to prevent ourselves not to fall in the same trap again.

There was a case i heard from a friend of mine. It makes me feel shock as in guy can be so pathetic and tactful when they want something more than pure relationship.

Before getting together with the gal, the guy Mr D would always do something touching to make sure he manage to grab the gal heart. Besides, he had make a lot of promises just to reassure the gal that he is seriously in love with her. The gal feel touch, trust everything and vowed to spend the rest of her life with this lovely guy.

However, when he manage to grab the gal's heart, he will try to ask for more in order to continue the relationship. He said this is the way he express his love and want the gal to trust him. He even propose to her and plan for their future. Perhaps this is so called the love promise and the gal choose to believe.

There are so much of issues they need to face it together. Before this, the guy told the gal no matter how the situation is she should not let go and he will always be there for her. But, he just break his promise. Finally, He choose to let go because he cant take it anymore. This is the excuse he tell the gal. The gal was very sad but agreed to break up at last.

After some period of time, they meet again. But, the gal find out the guy is no longer the one she knew before. He likes to insult her or say something rude when they meet up. The guy even requested the gal to become his sex partner and something more than that. This is how he sound like, looks like i m still have feeling on you, can we have sex together?(sound like he has a good heart by offer his sperm away??) I'll promise this love making is going to be very sweet and i'll be gentle to you since this is your first time. If you want a baby, i can give you one. (wow, sound like he is sort of God???) Just tell me where and when. I want it as a long term thing and we can meet once per month. What a hurtful words! The gal feel upset as in the guy is not sincere start from the beginning. All he wants is just SEX SEX and SEX!

what a ridiculous request?!!! Just wonder is this guy seriously in love with the gal or it is just a tactic for the guy to trap down the gal?? Feel kind of disappointed as in love could be so fragile and not sincere at all. People can even use tactics and pretend they are seriously in love. What is LOVE and Where is it???

miss him

2009-07-09T19:28:00.003+08:00

i guess i am really miss him so much after i back from the KL trip. I'm not sure what is my feeling towards him, only feel that he is the one who i feel comfortable to hang around with. Too much of the issues causes us can't get together, been missed the old days when we getting together as a couple. The kisses and hugs make me feel hard to let go. sometimes i just wonder by myself is it the reasons why i missed him so much?? is it the reason? or still there is other reason i missed him so much? Ever since the day we broke up i thought our love was already ended, as in we had a big argument before we ended it.

Dentist Vs Me

2009-02-03T13:09:00.003+08:00

I hate to visit dentist since i was a kid especially those who work for government because i find they are very rough when they deal with their patient. I do have a bad experience before and it's like a nightmare for me. Hence, I've promise myself never ever go to government dentist again. However, i decided to go back to dentist yesterday due to i din go for dental check up for nearly 7 years plus.

I was very nervous when i reached the clinic and totally freaked out when saw those equipments inside the room. The dentist told me that i'm having a dental issue which called Gingivitis and need to remove all the plaque ASAP. This is due to the infection will gradually destroy the underlying bone, causing the teeth to loosen and fall out. Gosh, i don't want to have all my teeth to fall out by the age of 35!! No matter how pain it is, i'm going to take it!! LOL

The process of cleaning and removal of plaque was quite bad and remind me of my last cleaning process in secondary schoold. After the clean up process, the doctor had given me some antibiotics as well as a special mouthwash to fight the infection. Guess the superb bad news would be i need to go back there for my second clean up process. Sigh sigh... I hate it !!

Sad

2009-01-23T20:45:00.002+08:00

Usually i don't like to argue, but today is just too much for me! I tried to fight back coz i can't take it anymore. All the words are very hurtful and make me feel very sad :( I keep on telling myself no matter how bad the arguement is i need to hold down my tears. But, cant make it at last. Sometimes i just wonder does God really listen to my praying? as i've pray so hard everyday. Another sad day to go....... @_@

陌生

2009-01-15T23:39:00.001+08:00

说真的好怕这种陌生感觉.
有可能我比较害怕分离, 因为分离足能让一对更本认识的人变的毫无关系.
从无话不谈演变成无话可说,从爱变成恨,从认识变成陌生人.
想要保持联络,又担心对方的想法及他那冷淡的态度.
有可能已习惯别人的疼爱,所以当有人对自己冷淡时,会觉得很不好受.
从小到大,从没试过被人大声呼喊过.最想不到的是自以为很疼爱自己的某人竟然会这样对待自己.
根本与这一颗心是很靠近的,不知怎地变得深不可测,完全陌生及已不能再透彻那颗心了.
想起真的是有些心疼,为什么会变成这样?
以前的我会转牛角尖,想要知道答案.
可是现在的我已不会再追求答案,就算知到了答案又怎样? 已定为事实了,为何又要再自我伤害呢?
也许已经看透一切吧!答案已不重要, 最重要的是我已学会放下, 往前看了!

Misunderstanding

2009-01-10T01:37:00.004+08:00

We have lots of misunderstanding gone through us. Sometimes, I'll have the funny thinking and there are lots of "what if" in my mind... What if i open up myself, what if he can be more patience to me, what if..... Well, i hope i can turn back time and also hope he can read my blog, at least he knows the real me and not the one he is thinking at. Nothing much can be done now as there are so much things to explain and i don't have the privilege to deal with it. Hopefully, times will prove who i am and clear up those misunderstanding. Just wonder when will it come?

New Hair Style

2009-01-10T01:04:00.006+08:00

My mum, sisters and i like to get our hair done when come to chinese new year. It's like a tradition for Lee's family. We never and ever missed it! Well, quite satisfy with the new hair style. It is nothing special as i had permed it last year, the only thing different is i've coloured it into light brown. This is due to i had coloured dark brown for the past two years, would like to try out something different this year.

Princess ChErRy

2009-01-10T00:37:00.009+08:00

She is the cutest baby i ever know, the one who i would like to spend more time with - Princess Cherry.

The most recent pix - Princess Cherry.

These pix taken when she is only about 1 year plus.

These pix taken when she just about 8 or 9 months old.

(some of my friends said she looks like little jack jack)

Resolutions in 2009

2009-01-02T11:35:00.002+08:00

There are so much of things i need to do in 2009:

Improve my communication skills and language (thanks for someone who had doubted me).
Find a job (It is a must to make me feel more confident because someone had reminded me on how useless i was in year 2008).
Save money for HK Trip (it is a promise between me and my mum).
Read more books, mags or newspaper (just to broaden my view and knowledge).
Spend more time and talk more with my family (although i am staying together with my family, but i dont really share alot about my feeling with them).

Well, those are the five main things i need to improve in year 2009. Hopefully, everything will going to be fine in year 2009 :)

Goodbye 2008, hello 2009

2009-01-02T11:16:00.003+08:00

Time flies so fast until i can't even realize it. There are so much of things happened in year 2008, it had became the most memorable year for me especially the 3 months before year 2009. Well, nothing much i can do now as it already past, a past which i cant do anything to fix it.
All i have to do now is move on and do something great in year 2009. No one will going to find out what's happen next in future, so we should just appreciate what we have now, take year 2008 as a lesson and try to make our life in year 2009 more content.

Boring Sunday

2008-08-24T16:22:00.002+08:00

I am having a late night sleep yesterday, planning to have a late wake up today. But, my mum want me to get up early cause today is family day! Well, i think i would need to ignore her wills. I am so damn sleepy and not really into any moods. This is due to i am having menses pain. It been torture me like hell few days ago, getting me into bad mood, bad temper and bla bla bla.
What a boring sunday to me, kind of lonely and bit lost. Just the feeling of myself..... Another day to go, life huh?!

It is all about LOVE

2008-08-24T03:25:00.004+08:00

Been trying to act like a spoilt young adult recently, maybe it is due to the unsolve problems that bothering me alot! Well, thank godness that i having my family with me. They try to deal it patiently and being understandable on why i m acting that way, especially my mum. She didn't blame me for coming out the decision and also not try to burden my stress. She been so understanding and supportive. I m so touch and happy to have her around!

I m been taking good care, pampered and showering with loves ever since i born. They always be there for me and fulfill whatever and everything i have asked for. One thing which make me feel touch and warm was they keep on telling me how precious i am for them, and how grateful they are to have me coming back home. I m not the type who easily have my tears down especially in public. Hence, I was trying to act nothing when they telling me this. Actually,i already cry out loudly inside my heart. Well, I m so lucky to have them and cant even find the best!

Love expression is rarely happen in chinese community, but we did practice it ever since my father passed away. We learn how to express, appreciate and care about each other. well, it is all about love in life. What is the most important thing for me? i would definitely say is my family, because they are the one who making up my past, present and future! I can lose everything but not them!

Today's feeling

2008-06-26T22:00:00.008+08:00

The most Hurt feeling is when you have to let go the things you really like.
The most Happy thing is when you get something you really like.
The most Miserable feeling is when you lost in your direction.
The most Sadness thing is something you dont wish to happen had happened.
The most Exciting is when someone give you a suprise.
My feeling was all blended into one - Sad, Happy, Hurt, Miserable and Exciting.
I feel hurt because i know i need to let go something that not really belong to me.
I feel happy because i m been given a chance.
I feel miserable because feel quite lost in my future.
I feel sad because things that happened few weeks ago were out of my expectation.
I feel exciting because waiting for suprise on my BIG day.
GOSH, i can have 5 different feelings just between 24 hours.... Really typical Lady huh?!
Feel like crying cause reminding of someone...
Well, life move on.... Cheers! You can make it, Janelle!

Steamboat + Farewell Dinner

2008-06-17T15:34:00.011+08:00

Liza been suggested go for a steamboat dinner few days ago. It was sort of renuion + farewell dinner. Thanks them for organizing the steamboat dinner specially for me and liza. The funniest part was we went home separately cause we didn't invited our Manager around. I think Ms Felix will be curious why everyone was knocked off exactly on 7pm. Hahahaha...... This is the first time we having dinner together as a big gang. But sadly, there are some of them cannot make it.

Obviously, steamboat is not my favorite and yet still enjoy it. We heading to dessert shop to continue our chit-chatting till around 10 plus. Quite a tiring day for me (didn't really have a good rest since back from Malacca)! I need a good rest tonight, can't make it to any appointment. But, Yvonne just suggested go for clubbing this weekend. Well, another happening weekend to go! Tire, feel like going home now! I am damn envy Ms Gwen cause she is "Snaking" now! Still have 1 hour and 15 minutes to go.... sigh sigh

Busy Weekend

2008-06-15T22:32:00.002+08:00

It is been a busy weekend. Been hang around with friends start from Fri till today! Maybe I've done too much of walking, making my leg's muscle getting pain again! Gosh, i think i need to stop wearing high heels start from tomorrow!

Din really have enough sleep and rest for this weekend. But, i was quite happy with that as i did spent a lot of time with my friends. Quite a good memory for me! Well, Great Singapore Sales was started. By right, i should be superb duper happy as it is a great time for me to shop around. But now, I need to do some budgeting, can't overspend. Well, i believe my life should not just ended in that way. There is still some hopes around me (i mean job opportunity).

Basically, my whole Saturday's hang out was just bowling and do some shopping on Lang Tengah Trip. We been doing some research on our swimsuit from one shop to another. Finally, we manage to get our swimsuit! At first, i was keep on telling Gwen that i only want Tankini but end up i had bought a bikini too and it is white in colour! It was so not me! Well, things change, so do ME! Did i said i m doing some budgeting just now?? Ops.. I bought something again! Our Gal's hang out ended around 9 plus at night.

I wake up early on Sun morning and went to Tampines with my Godma. The room that we going to rent was quite nice, it makes me feel like being home! Was praying hard that i can move in soooon! Well, feeling great as just settle one of my problems! Now i need to focus on my job hunting! was hoping everything going to be alright!

After that, was rushing home to do some errands and headed to Central Shopping to meet up with Michelle and Gwen. They been late again, make me wait for another 30 minutes. Sigh Sigh.... Whatever it is, really having a great time with them (we are just gossiping on both client and my company's stuff! Gals huh?).

Me was rushing back straight away after the lunch as i was so damn sleepy and tire! Penny, still remember what i said when i m lazy or getting tire?? *I WISH I HAVE A MAGIC BUTTON* i think you should know what i m going to say in the next sentence! Hehehehehe....

It is 11.25pm, i need to CIAO! need to zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz .... MONDAY BLUE again, i was so damn sick jor!!

32 Days to go...

2008-06-12T22:02:00.005+08:00

32 more Days to go... Gosh, time flies huh! Can't believe i had spent a year at here. I am running out of idea on how i get through it. Still remember the first few weeks at LH.M, it is really like a disaster for me! Pick up everything by myself, it is hard but i still work hard on it. I have no choice coz been signing one year contract with the company, i cant do anything but to learn whatever i can.

Colleagues are nice, at least we don't have any office politic. I m damn lucky to have them around! If you ask me what make me feel hard to let go (in LH.M), i would say is them! But, life move on. i need to go for better prospect due to strategy career move on.

Can't wait for my last day! Even though haven't get any job, but still looking for it. As i m going to LANG TENGAH sooooonn! Yahooooo...... and before my last day, i m going to Cameran Highland with my family.

Trying to fill up my left over time in singapore, hence, was planing some gals activities start from last month. We been went to ZOooo, Clubbing, bowling (this weekend activity), meet up with other friends and bla bla bla. Well, this weekend will going to be another busy week for me. Really looking forward to it!

P.S. Gwen Pan, please gear up yourself!! We will going to have a friendship race this week!

2008-05-30T00:28:00.002+08:00

Admin people was trying to talk to me today, it is regarding my resignation. At first, i was ok with the conversation. But, when she informed me that she need to hold back my pay. I was starting to get crazy. What on earth they think they are?? I understand this is some sort of rule and regulations at here, but can't they just hold my June's salary instead of May?? I got nothing to say but why?? OK, Fine. I try to think positively, at least don't be too negative with it.

Then, she bringing the conversation to the extension of my Employment Pass. She sound this when she talking about that,"Hmm, we might NEED to EXTEND your employment pass for one or two months, need to depend on WY (another bitch). If she needs you to stay, we might extend your pass." I really pissed when listen to that, but i make myself calm and smile back politely. Just answer her," Well, we will see how it goes!"

GOSH, my feeling was jumping up and down! How can they be like that? They don't even ask about my opinion whether to extend or not?? Really dislike when people making decision for me and especially it is without my conscent. Well, they can extend any day they like to but they can't force me to STAY!

NEvermind, I am still left one month plus to go. So, just given a piece of advise at here. Please try not to being nasty with me especially during this few weeks, I din voice out anything all this while doesnt mean i m weak or useless. Just don't like to make things bad, that's all...

Am taking own risk!

2008-05-28T23:37:00.003+08:00

Manage to tender at last! was damn damn release! Me also don't know why have such feeling, mayb i don't really like this current job. On the other way, feel bit too risky by taking this action. By right i should't tender it, should find a job first even i have it in my mind. But, i really cant take it anymore! Feel like going to be crazy.

I really running out of idea on how to deal with that. Usually when come to this situation, i will tend talk to HIM. But seem likes, HE dun even have time to listen at all. Well, am already get used to it. Din inform much people about my resignation, only few that really close to me. No point of sharing it as they will think how childish i am to come out such desicion.

Ya, right! i shouldn't did that but i already DID. So, the only way out is to start looking for JOBS! May god bless me though!! Dear Birdie Browie, can you listen to my wish?? Can you fly over and looks the best for me? SigH Sigh *%#$@#&

Let's bygone be bygone!

2008-04-22T21:41:00.004+08:00

Get to know some news last few days, was hoping it was not going to be real. Few questions go around me. What if this really come true? HOw am i suppose to deal with it? How am i move on? Am i ready to let go if it become real? Can i accept it as a fact?? There are many "Wat If" in my mind. I really running out of idea on how to cope with it, as been putting lots of effort in it. Really Don't wish to end it just like that! Learn something today, Let's bygone be bygone! I need to take the first step bravely before i move on to my life again. Yea, i really cant do anything if it is become true. I really cant do much! All the best to me and HIM!

dreaming of him

2008-04-20T20:18:00.002+08:00

i was having a sweet dream today, he is back to my dream again. The one has been left for about 10 years plus. But, i can't see him clearly this time round. Just can feel the happiness during the dream, the happiness which i missed so much. Should i say i miss him alot or?? what my life will be if he still around this world? Sad, Scare or happy or....? Well, no one will going to find out. Whatever it is, i did love him once..

Finally, i get to know the answer!!

2008-04-08T22:39:00.003+08:00

Manage to read his blog today and some comments of the blogs as well. He was writing about an article about some sort of appreciation. At first, i din feel anything on it till read the comments below. in the comment, it is something on how he feels on his past relationships. i was quite sad after reading it as "he" feel bore with his ex gf and tend to let go coz dont have any feeling on her?? just wonder why he rather share his piece of mind with his so call colleague and dont even try to talk with me before he came out any decision. i really speechless when read it, really have nothing to say. seem like he is having a great life even without me around, i think it is really a good time for me to let go!! at last, i know what is the answer!! and it really make me feel sad. may god bless him manage to get someone he really know how to appreciate with. it is just a sad thing that i cant be the one who he really can appreciate on.

i m bek!!

2008-03-29T21:38:00.004+08:00

It was quite a long time for din update my blog.. well, i doing fine and nothing special, just another usual life to move on. Time flies, now already end of march. it was nearly 1 year plus staying in singapore. Sometime, feel bit bore staying at here as most of my friends and family are in malaysia. Really dunno what the point of staying at here... quite miss them alot!!

没有心的日子...

2007-08-29T12:37:00.000+08:00

这几天过着没有心的生活, 想不到他对我的影响还是这么大. 我的心真的好疼, 好疼.....
吃着没有味道的食物, 听着没有感情的歌, 因为我已经不知道我的心飞去了那里.....
好想把它找回来, 可是却找不回来.....
我该怎么做??? 才能回到以前的生活, 才能完完全全地忘了他???

What i Feel

2007-06-22T14:08:00.000+08:00

HL confirmed he will going to pay a visit for me next week. I was super duper happy when i know that but also feel a bit uncertainty. I really don't have any idea what he up to this time. Making me very sad for my last year birthday and now come all the way from Genting to Singapore just to celebrate birthday with me this year. Well, will not think so much this time because it make me tire. We had hang out with each other for nearly 3 and half years, we break up , get back together and break up again. It make me feel unsecured, as i can't held him beside me and don't know when he will leave me again, feel like he not even belong to me। Sigh SiGh....

HOwever, he really make me feel touch recently। When he told me he miss me because i m the gal who always delight his life, concern him alot and make him feel touch all the time, i feel warm coz he din tell me all this thing before. The second thing he make me feel happy is when he msg me he will fight for everything juz to come over singapore and celebrate birthday with me. Nearly cry....(He didnt did anything like this before, dunno since when he become so romantic!!).

The feeling is like falling in love again..But, i still feel very scare and unsecure..

Sharing Life

2007-06-15T13:53:00.000+08:00

Penny pop up to me yesterday and told me that she feel so lost.Well, me too actually. JUst dunno how to overcome this feeling sometime. We feel lost because we cant find someone who can share everything with us. I mean struggle for 24 years and yet still cant find the one who really belong to us, that really pity man!! When we ready to share everything with the person, doesnt mean they are ready to share with us as well. Is it mean he is not the right one we looking for? My manager suddenly ask me a question today. He ask:" when you wanna change your title from Ms Janelle to Mrs Janelle?" It is long way to go for me. I dun even think of Marriage because i m still cant find the right one to share everything. Mayb i need to be alone for the rest of my life and mayb not. Who know what happen in future?!

Disapointed

2007-06-15T13:08:00.000+08:00

i been calling HL last night, was hoping to share some of my feeling with him.. i also dunno why i will go back to him everytime when i face problems. I will feel more release and know what to do on my next step after talk to him. Well, like usual, i was calling him when i feel upset. Tot can be better after calling him but who know it make me getting more worst. (In a bad mood for whole night till today) When i call, he just said like this :"i m busy now." then, hang up the phone. I was a bit disapointed that time. Yet, i reassure myself that he will give me some feedback or something after the call. he din send me any msg, which was what he did normally. I feel very very upset because i thought we are having some connection. I think i must be thinking so much for all this while. He had promised me that will try to come over singapore during my birthday. I was very happy when he told me so. Be frank, he is the one i wish he can make it for my birthday. However, after yesterday, i think i will not put so much of hope anymore. Feel disapointed again!!

Emotional

2007-06-14T11:38:00.000+08:00

I only realized i m emotional type after attending the seond interview yesterday. It is kind of shock as i seldom act that way. Well, i have no idea what drive me act that way. Juz feel hard on certain decision.. HOping i was making a right decision after all. It is not easy to get such oppporturnity, so i must grab and appreciate it. I know it deeply that I will lose something if i grab this opporturnity. Think positively!! this is what i keep on persuade myself. I want better life and something extraordinary!! I believe i can do it well and more than that. Thanks God for granted me all this!! This is what i ask and dream for all this while..

Knitting

2007-05-30T16:57:00.000+08:00

Recently, i had came out an idea just to cheer someone .I was thinking to knit a sweater (Nothing much, juz want to show some caring). When come to knitting, i was totally out of idea as i don't even know how to sew. (How can I knit a sweater?) Well, i had done some research before i start knitting. It is kind of hard, but i still insist to do it because i do it for someone that i really care! However, i did change my idea at last (dont wan to knit) as i dunno it is worth for me to do all this kniting stuff?

Lost

2007-05-24T10:54:00.000+08:00

Lost, this is the feeling i dislike the most. I bet nobody will like it at all. I feel lost in everything, totally lost.. not only in relationship, but working, life and bla bla bla..Dunno what is the purpose of working so hard?! Well, my friend told me this is normal, we will been through it sometime..Just dun like this feeling much... But, there is nothing i can do....SobSOB...

Prinsip

2007-05-23T15:15:00.000+08:00

This is first time i buy 4D. I also suprise why i did that because it is out of my prinsip. I have no choice because invite by my colleauges somemore it is only cost my $2. Well, it din take me much so i juz break my prinsip and give on. But, this doesnt mean i encourage gambling, I still very firm with my prinsip!!

Talking about prinsip....Hmm..i do have some prinsip in my life and very firm with that too..But only apply in certain area. Well, it is good to have prinsip, can help us to restrict on what we doing. So that we will not go over it.

But, too firm with the prinsip also not a good thing sometime. U will not listen to others coz too firm with those prinsip. Here u are, PR skill need to be apply in this situation. Sometime, when u really dun like the things and it break your prinsip, do not have to straight away voice it out. Juz play some tactic by spinning a bit, U will get the outcome u want. Isnt it easy, huh?!

To Change or not to Change?!

2007-05-23T10:32:00.000+08:00

Receive a phone call today, make me feel confuse... The phrase of "To change or not to change" keep on whispering at my heart. haiz, i dun like to make decision sometime cause it is very hard for me to choose. I will prefer others to choose for me, i will not have to think then. I like to take for granted (let other to pick the decision for me) when come to decision making as i dun wan the decision i make will end up hurting someone.

The GM of advertising company call me today, offer me an account executive post (which i dream a lot). I suppose i should be happy when receive the call, but i m not!! I keep on nagging in front my friends that i wanna change my recent jobs, but i feel bad when i really have the chance to change my job. WOmen do change all the time!! When they say so doesnt mean they really want to.

I feel sorry if i leave the recent job as i cant even come out a good reason to leave the company (SighSIGH....) This is because they treat me so good and i do not think i will find others like them in new company. Thanks god for treating me so nice by letting me work at this company. At least, i dun have to face some office politics like my friends does. I have no worry or tense when working there. (it is means this job is suiting me??)

But, on the othe hand, this position does not satisfy me at all (i mean the job scope). I admit i m the ambitious type of people (i m not look like, dun I?) I m not easily satisfy with what i have, i want beyond than that. If i m the easy satisfy people, things will be different then. At least, I dun have to bother so much as long as i having a good paid job, good husband and bla bla bla...All will be happy ending!! I dont have to torture myself by coming to sg and want sometime different.

Haiz... Which way should i go then?? leave the company and go for other jobs in order to satisfy me?! or just stay and choose to become simple n normal??? NO More Outstanding....Can someone choose for me huh?? Anyone?

Lucky or Not?!

2007-05-22T09:11:00.000+08:00

When group together with my friends, they always complaining about their jobs and bla bla bla...i do complaint my job but not as what they complaining. I complaint my job because it is too free and bore (First time people complaint their work in such way?!) SIgh Sigh.. Well, i think i am the luckiest among my friends. This is due to my colleagues are very nice to me, and i m having an understandable manager and Director.(For the movement only, cant confirm in future..hehe) HL said i m very "xin fu" because they are so nice to me and take care me as well. For me, I think i m still ok with it but pray that don't be so free will do.(I dun want to be so BORE!!!) Feel like i m a married rich "tai tai", come in to work but do not have anything to do, just sit there and get a good salary..Haiz, this is not what i prefer after all. Sound like i m very useless!!! Sigh siGh...

Sick!!

2007-05-07T15:17:00.000+08:00

Getting sick after came back from KL, never recover for about one week plus.. Lazy to consult doctor and thought it is just a small case, but who know it getting worst!!

Suddenly miss my mum so much.... how good it is if she is beside me because she know what i want when i sick.

Still remember vividly when i was small, i like to cry when i sick. Nothing much, just want to gain my Mum's attention.

When come to Uni time, i still cry when i sick...when she call me to ask about my situation, i will even cry harder.. SOb Sob..I also dunno why i cry more harder?! Probably i am " anak bongsu" at home..

HOwever, when come to singapore, i did change a lot. I never cry when i m sick n never let her know becoz i dun wan her to worry on me!! (Gosh!! Feel like more independent than last time)

KL trip

2007-05-04T15:47:00.000+08:00

Going down to kl last fri to meet with my dearest friends- Penny, Grace and Wen Wen. The trip was great becoz it was planned by Lovely Ex Roomate cum Coursemate cum BEst Friend- Penny!!! (Thanks for it...).

On the First day in kl, we headed to Klang for "BAK KUT TEH" (YUmmy YuMMy!!). Although it was not my favor, but i did enjoyed so much as i could hanging around with my GaLs. After that, we headed to Wine Bar which located at Damansara Height (Actually, not really remember the location....). We do enjoy the place coz it is a nice place to chit chatting and drinking as well. (Gosh !! my drinking skill have improve!!)

So sad coz WenWen cannot make it at that nite, i m sure it will be more fun to have her around. Only manage to meet with her on the next day, we meet up for Dim SUM and some drinks at the YIPPE (OUr very own drinking place last time.). THen, i headed back to SIngapore after the meeting... SIGh SIgh..... I wish i have more time to spend with my friend!! MISS THem A Lot!!

Old Pics.........

2007-04-27T10:40:00.000+08:00

Those are the pictures i like the most, i cant even get them out of my sight when i first saw them They seem so lovely and the most important thing is "I LOOK GOOD", kind of amuse myself....Hahahaah BUt now... those are just few pieces of old pics.. i treasure them alot last time, even bring it with me everytime i was going out..Silly ME ..this will not be happen anymore, not now, not in the future.. Feel hurt when look at those pics, but i cant do anything.. I believe that when i stop looking back at those pics, means i prepare to let go everything. I really make it at last, no more glancing at the pic like idiot.. NO more Bring them out anymore.. I m glad with myself as i really make it at the end. is it a good thing for me??

New Life in Singapore

2007-04-13T12:44:00.000+08:00

It is totally a new life for me in here as i have to start everything all over again..
i dunno why i making such decision .it is totally not my way!! GoSH.....
Maybe this is a good way for me to stay away something..
I wish i make a wise decision...